Another  test?

Sometimes when you think your all pieced back together, a seam sort of unravels. It really makes me tired and  angry.
It's like this. The garden needs weeding. Yesterday got my tools and headed up the hill. The new irrigation system had the water on in prime weeding time------ if there is such a thing!
So I trudged down the hill. Don't worry, it only comes on every other day. Tomorrow you can weed.
So I went to wenatchee instead.

Today I put my hair on top of my head, put on a long sleeved shirt over my comply weeding clothes and headed up hill.

I have a mind that if I am awake and sometimes when I sleep,it's off and running.
My body knows it is not quite part
 I don't know quite what is off kelter, but the body just isn't perking along with me.
And that is like putting sugar in a gastank and dirt balls in my mind.

Trying to weed,clean and all of that my mind is running 90 miles a minute on old problems, worries and hearaches. I can' ever seem to turn it's direction or turn it off.
I just kept weeping and getting angrier and angrier at stuff that's gone done and buried. Angry at my self.
And then the water nozzles came on and soaked me before I could get my tools and to the dry!!!!!
How convent is that?